Some thoughts and ideas.
I fail. I fail all the time. I have failed so hard that waking up the next morning felt close to impossible. I have had my failures thrown in my face and I have also been thrown into the consequences of those failures. People fail and it is what we do. But why do we call it failure?
I create plans for my life all the time and if I do not measure up to these standards I have created (or others have created) for myself, then I consider my efforts failed. I have seen way to many people break down because of a stitch in their "perfectly planned" life. You cannot know where your life will take you. You can't know who will be in your life, what job you'll be at, or what experiences you will have in the future. That is what makes life so beautiful. As Lennon states, "Life is what happens when you're busy making other plans."
"In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on." -Robert Frost
I have learned to trust that things will continue to move. People will continue to hurt me, I will continually have to keep changing my plans, and I will continue to have to fight for this life. Still, failures happen for a reason. Maybe I failed that exam because I had to learn how to apply myself better to my studies, maybe I had to retake a class so that I could grow into a deeper friendship with the girl who brought me McFlurrys to our 9am lecture, and maybe I got rejected from my dream Physical Therapy school because I have to have more experience before I work with patients or maybe that isn't even the path my life will take. And that's okay, because all these things that broke my plans brought me to the wonderful life I am living now.
"Freedom lies in being bold." -Robert Frost
I have really tried to learn how to be bold with my life. Everyone has moments where the insecurities of their life encloses them, but we must fight for the freedom that comes from boldness. If we had the ability to release ourselves of the fear of failure or rejection, imagine what we could create with our lives. If we were able to be ourselves during every moment, by standing with integrity and a confident self awareness, while knowing that we can never know what is going to happen in life and knowing that we will not succeed in everything, I believe that would be a success in itself. Boldness is not about being brave, it is understanding your weakness and continuing to fight to pursue your path, while looking the unknown dead in the eye. It is knowing that all of this is worth the heartache that may occur in the possible and probable failures.
Perfect love casts out fear... - 1 John 4:18
I know that I could not be the same person without every failure. These things have made me who I am and have brought me to Idaho, Minnesota, Scotland, and many many other places where I have met the most amazing people in the entire world. It sounds strange, but I cannot wait to see where God takes me next in his crazy plan for me. I am (hesitantly) ready to accept rejection letters, lost loves, and broken hearts because I know it's molding me into the person I am meant to be.
A good friend of mine sent me the video below and I think everybody should watch it. It teaches you to fight for your life. To fight for every inch that we have and that we can get. We can fall to pieces every time something bad happens or we can fight our way back into the light. My mom always tells me that everyday you have a choice when you wake up. You can be happy and invigorate the lives of others with your laughter and joy... or you can choose to play the victim. I (mostly) choose to be happy. I choose to be boldly myself in the face of the unknown, even when every plan has failed in my life and it seems like there is nowhere else to turn. Because there is always another turn and another choice to be made. It is such a struggle to make this decision sometimes, but so worth it at the same time. It allows you to fully live your life. You can choose to focus on the failures or choose to fight for your life, inch by inch and day by day, until you stop thinking of failures as obstacles, but instead as blessings that thankfully make you who you are. Because no matter who you are, somebody loves who you have become. Somebody is thankful that those failures brought you into their life.
So, especially to my friends graduating and ending a chapter in their lives, I hope that we are able to boldly go into the unknown and blow people's perceptions out of the water. Let's make our own unique statement, because why not? Let's enjoy life so much it hurts, because let's face it, sometimes it will.